Up and Down


Hi guys, I have been so behind again…as always and with all the fun of the fair with Forrest..well I have had less stress before!

I have awards to show and thank people for and a cardie for a special kitty to post as well…I thought today I would catch up but no..

I had run out of some meds I take to ward off a health issue and so I had to head to the Drs..this meant also missing an important CWA event ..so compounding guilt and still stressed I am just about in a knot bwahahaahah πŸ™‚

I can joke but it really is annoying..today also some terrible news that has made me think about a lot of things…not the least how tomorrow is promised to none of us….all we really have is today…

When I get a bit weighed down with physical (always lugging lifting doing) and then emotional (Forrest Forrest and Forrest! ) my body starts to crack it with me…

I am not complaining…well I am bwahahaha and it does all this groovy stuff…like…I can’t spell properly….I get words back to front which makes typing a chore as I am re doing everything…my muscles ache as if I have run a marathon…I have headaches (awesome one been around for a week now) my eye sight becomes pretty bad..lord knows what my hair lloks like…my depth perception changes so I stumble a bit and get vertigo..i become incredibly tired…I have trouble saying words sometimes …so I can see in my head a couch know I wat to say couch but cannot make the connection….scared you all off yet ?? bwhahaahaa

I become sensitive to sound smell and light and these sense are on overdrive…and as I type this I have gone over it o many tiesm and the spelling is still stupid!!

So if I am a bit slack please forgive me..i really want to comment and post and read your blogs and thanyou etc and I will do my best..but it may be a chore..and that is my frustration…it os not from a lack of desire…I don’t get down in the dumps at all just cheesed off at my body…

So there you go…I am indeed falling apart at the seams πŸ™‚

I have Fibromyalgia most likely due to two bouts of Meningitis one contracted at 11 the other the day before my 20th birthday..the use of Lipitor for my Cholesterol has also been attributed to this problem…glutton for punishment me…

The reason I have done this post is because so many people have it ad so many people assume it is an issue of depression or laziness I can tell you I have neither…I am not lazy and I may be on the couch in agony but I still laugh my head off as I always have.

So I suppose I have been complaining bwahahaahah..

Anywho I will get back to myself I always do..so if I seem a bit here and there this is why πŸ™‚

Have a great day and remember enjoy this now moment ….it is all we have and all that really matters.

Hugs Fozziemum xx

67 thoughts on “Up and Down

  1. I am soooo sorry that your body is revolting against life (that’s revolting as in the verb, not the adjective). I truly understand how frustrating it is not to be in total control of your life, I have a medical issue that crops up every so often as well and I just have to ride it out and wait until my body gets back on an even keel. But it always seems to eventually. Just take it one moment at a time and keep laughing…it helps.

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    • I agree one step at a time my friend..i tend to get impatient and push myself…and pay the price..i really am a jerk at listening to my body bwhahahaa πŸ™‚ I feel for you as I know what it is like to have to wait till your bod behaves..but you are right it does get sorted…and yes always laughing…hobbling along laughin all the way..i do look comical bwahahaaha πŸ™‚ husg to you Fozziemum xx

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  2. OH Fozzie.M Momwithoutpaws has had problems with migraines, she knows exactly what you mean. She made some changes and so far it has been 5 months since her last migraine.. whew, she could not stand to have light in her eyes all that you described. She is also dyslexic so she knows the forward back word typing. It helps her to blog , repetition and all.
    I am virtually wrapping my paws around you giving you a doggie hug.

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    • Thanks Fredrieka yes the migraines are the pits..i suffered them for years from the Meningitis..poor old brain copped a hiding bwahahaa and I cannot imagine the frustration of Dyslexia although I get a brief taste with this…thanks for the huggies I feel it from here πŸ™‚ lovies Fozziemum xxx

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  3. Oh, I do feel for you Bev and know exactly what you’re talking about as I’ve been like that for the past week. Those headaches are the most annoying as you can’t do much and the tiredness really sucks! The muscle pains are bearable but not when it goes to your head and then to the eyes. Please take care of yourself hon and take it easy. Stress makes it so much worse. I am thinking of you and please feel better soon. πŸ˜€ β™₯ Big Hugs β™₯

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    • Thanks my sweet yes the eyes and headaches…grrrrr my muscles ache usually bearable some days not..i am destresssing at the moment so pacing myself and getting rid of stressors πŸ™‚ thankyou my friend I know you get it πŸ™‚ (((hugs))) Bev ❀ xx

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  4. Nothing like a good moan to make you feel better and we are always here to listen. We too have been under the weather and we know it can get you down. No worries you take it easy and we see you when we see you.
    Take care.
    Best wishes Molly

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  5. Oh Bev, I’m amazed you’re holding things together as well as you do all things considered and we’re all allowed to be wacky with or without medication I say…..life isn’t always easy (in fact it rarely is) so we do what we have to do. Health issues make it even WORSE. Just take it easy……but until you’re back to feeling good, we could temporarily call you “fuzzymom” if you’re feeling just a bit off???!!! πŸ˜‰

    Hugs and love, Pam

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    • Bwhahahah Fuzzymom sounds perfect Pam…feeling a bit better today and just pacing..wacky being my middle name hahaha and you are so right..life is seldom easy…I always think of those who have it far far worse..by comparison my issues are small..i at least know wht will trigger it and what to do to deal with it…it is not insurmountable and for that I am grateful…frustration being the worst part I am so impatient!! and I try and pace myself and then find myself misbehaving bwahahahaa πŸ™‚ I need to be sent to my room for a time out!!! Hugs and loves Bev xxxx πŸ™‚

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  6. Oh Fozziemummy, we send you lots and lots of wuvwuvwuv and Mama’s extra special healing light around the globe to youowooowooooooo! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxo, Ku and the whole pack.
    p.s. I don’t know if Apollo told you or Dinnermintz yet, but his birthday is coming up on April 6th! My big brother will be 8!!!

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    • Thanks sweet Ku I can feel the loves and lights from here πŸ™‚ and boy a Birthday for Apollo is so exciting I am sure Dinnermintz has something planned for her FEE-ANT-SAY πŸ˜‰ lucky 8 indeed! loves to you all Fozziemum xxxxxx

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  7. I send you a bucket of healing power and I wish we will find a cure for FMS. It’s an evil gremlin what knows no mercy and what tries to steal parts of your life. Please feel better soon, 87 hugs to you.

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    • Thanks sweet Easy I can feel the lovies from here πŸ™‚ and I promise those 87 hugs help…yes it is a Gremlin and needs a boot in the ass!! hugs and loves Fozziemum xx

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    • Thanks Laura interesting link..i will investigate for sure…always looking for things that can help..no summer didn’t help at all and the Forrest incident and other stuff going on…I will be fine as long as I pace myself…yeah right!! love Bev xxx

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  8. I tried the Lipitor and it messed me UP! I was like a zombie. Really freaked hubby out. Now I ignore that I have high cholesterol… Just wondering – have you ever been tested for MS? I’m wondering if I should be tested myself…

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    • Yep it is a dangerous drug! causes muscle damage which is what it did to me..after ten years on it..on something different now..the rheumatologist has ruled MS out but did tell my old Dr to get me off the Lipitor….when you research it its pretty bad..my old Dr should have told me the warnings…America has been on it for awhile and there are so many cases its not funny…it did not affect me in any way I was aware of until it was too late..the chol med I am on now is not a statin (these are the dodgy ones) and I still get muscle enzyme tests done to keep tabs on it…just damn annoying…the difference between wanting to do stuff and not being able to is frustrating πŸ™‚ xx

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      • What are you on now? Maybe I could ask my doc – if I ever see the man. I hate hate hate the system here!

        I was also on one of the big painkillers that was removed for issues – can’t recall which one – when I was in the deep throes of FM.

        Glad you are cleared for MS. It worried me, the symptoms you gave. Me…I just know SOMETHING is wrong but I don’t know what. It is flippin’ frustrating.

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        • I am on Ezetrol and so far no issues…my cholesterol on my 40th birthday was 11.4 ..Dr rang in a panic and said I was a bees off having a stroke…I am slender eat a Mediterranean diet lot’s of vegies olive oil etc so it’s hereditary mother father sister all chol issues and apart from mum not overweight…yes the symptoms are similar and I don’t think much of the system here either..travelled 3 hours to see this rheum who cut me off when I tried to explain something to him and after 5 minutes max charged 280 bux none of which we could claim on our Private health insurance which we pay a fortune for and get less and less for every year…3 hrs in a car when you are in pain and then to get this arrogance…not happy..haven’t been back and won’t be either..my new Dr is great..thankfully..check Vit D levels too mine were so low the Dr wondered how I put one foot in front of the other…and we live here in the land of sun!!

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        • Sorry I missed the first question bwahahah see…sheesh I am on Lyrica Vit D blood pressure meds chol meds osteo arthritis meds and evening primrose oil…I do rattle πŸ˜‰

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  9. Well, when you fall apart, we will put you back together again.. That’z a song you know.. I’m keeping off that FB tonight’z.. i need some sleep BOL..Love you loads xxxoxxx πŸ™‚ xxxx and loads xxxx

    Mollie and Alfie

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    • Bwahahhaaah you shicken!! yes you need sleep..it’s early heer and been raining all night…can’t tell you how fab that sound is….the pups went out for a wee and stopped in their tracks…don’t think they remember what rain is bwhaahhahaha..love you heaps my sweets and thanks I will be fine…all catching up…stoopid body I want a refunds! hugs Fozziemum xxxxxxx

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  10. Bodies have a way of turning on us like mad dogs when we least expect it. Be kind to yourself. Don’t stress or push too hard. It’ll all play out like it’s meant to and you’ll be back in business before you know it. Cupcake and I will say prayers for you.

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    • Thanks so much my sweet friends..i am taking it easy today and listening to my demanding cow of a body bwhahaha πŸ™‚ this too shall pass…as always πŸ˜‰ hugs and loves Fozziemum xx

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  11. Fozziemum, I am so sorry to hear you are feeling like this. I have a chronic illness, and the symptoms are very much similar to Fibromyalgia (so much so that people often get diagnosed with both… if they manage to get diagnosed at all, you know how that is I bet? ). Anyway, so what I am saying is that I completely empathise with how you are feeling and I admire you so much for coming on here and posting about it too.
    However, nobody is going to think bad of you for not posting as often & you have lots of people here that care and understand. So get lots of rest (as much as poss) and take lots of care!
    Mahoosive hugs, Carrie (Myfie, Ellie and Millie) x

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    • Awww thanks so much Carrie and fur-bubs πŸ™‚ yes I do know what it’s like to get passed around the medical fraternity…sheesh…I was so lucky to find a Dr that almost in an instant realized what was going on…had my regular GP who has known me since forever tell me I was depressed..i wasn’t I was tired and annoyed..i was unable to get up with muscle pain and yet still laughing my chops off…I am always laughin bwahahaha so I dropped him like a hot potato..he should have known me well enough..i can imagine people do get depressed though if they are not getting help…he should have looked at the chol meds he had been pumping in me fro 10 years that have a bad track record!! oh well at least I know and with the fire season over and Forrest having the snake incident and some other stresses including 11 acres to try and wrangle I knew it would catch up..my silly I kept pushing…indeed peeps here are lovely and so understanding…I just miss doing posts and chatting..even this reply has taken me forever because my words have been back to front bwahahaha..If I typ THNAKS one more time instead of thanks I will scream bwahahha Thnaks again my sweets and I am sorry yu too have a problem that lays you low!! dang bodies and their crazy shenanigans xxxx Loves Fozziemum

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      • Urgh, I swear sometimes it is worse when they have known you for a long time. Sometimes, they think they know you better than you know yourself. Or, rather they try and make you fit in a textbook definition… anyway. Grr.
        If you miss it, that’s a different thing, of course. I just worried that you felt bad about being behind, so good! if that isn’t the case… just remember not to burn yourself out and take lots of care. We will all still be here when ya are ready!
        And yes! lol if somebody could invent a replacement body/brain service, that would be most excellent! πŸ™‚
        Hugs to you and yours, lovely. x

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        • I agree he was almost like a friend and I needed a dr..oh well ..I am still behind hahaha but I went in to town to do something and on the way back went to a lovely reservoir…just me nobody around…had a double shot latte with me and my camera…me and the ducks..dangled my feet in the water and got a good dose of natures therapy πŸ™‚ thanks my sweets take care yourself hugs and love to you all Fozziemum xxx

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    • Aww thanks so much Ellie I am getting lots of kitty loves πŸ˜‰ as soon as I slow down and rest they jump on board and make biscuits bwahhah πŸ™‚ husg Fozziemum xx

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  12. Isn’t it just bullocks when the will is there but the body is going down the toilet? So sorry you have Fibromyalgia. You have been tested for Lupus and MS too haven’t you dear? Don’t want the other big ones missed. You know us cheerful medical people, always see the darker side of things! I live with the chronic pain thing too. They have diagnosed Fibromyalgia but I am not sure since I have seen people soooo much worse that I and I am lucky enough that I can work every day so I don’t believe them. Why do us women always get all the fun stuff? Periods, childbirth, menopause…….mentalpause as they call it at work. Just take care of yourself and ignore the negative ones. The only opinions that matter in the end are yours and your animals so to heck with the rest of ’em!
    Love to ya!
    Marty’s Mom

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    • Hahaha oh Marty’s mum πŸ™‚ yes we get all the crappola..tested for Lupus MS Thyroid all the neuro stuff..brain scans I have one which surprised me..i am sure it is connected to the two bouts of Meningitis..i never really got over the second one and started having kids almost right after..joy of joys..i have seen much worse with Fibro and also much better..the connection to the Lipitor is astounding also..just lucky I guess bwahahaha :0 I have learned to say no to things now so I don’t overload..i have found so many people here in the bloggie world with Fibro it’s quite astounding..i am lucky to know so many wonderful peeps..they keep me smiling πŸ™‚ hugs and loves back to you πŸ™‚ Fozziemum xxx

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    • Thanks Sharon πŸ™‚ poor girl I read the link…I can relate…it has just taken me over half an hour to work out the lid for my pressure cooker…you would think I had never used it….I was cussing and carrying on bwahahahaa it was a simple thing but I just could not get my head around it…walked away came back …good grief πŸ™‚ all good though it didn’t beat me..Corned beef it is πŸ˜‰ thanks for your kind words..i do know I am not lazy but because I am so active I feel lazy if I am not running around going flat out…hugs to you my friend and watch that little rock…he’s a trickster πŸ˜‰ xx

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  13. Thank you Bev for a great blog!!! I too have Fibromyalgia & OsteArthritis since I was 25 yrs old….now 58 so many years of learning to live with these 2 conditions. I was doing all right for years until 1998 when other stuff started happening….after 2 yrs of Specialists I was diagnosed with DISH (Skeletal Hyperostosis). It can be benign by itself; but coupled with Fibro & Arthritis it appears like I have MS…I so so relate to you about the fatigue & dizziness; the pain; the fatigue; the memory probs…all of it.
    I just had Lidocaine injections a week ago Thursday which are helping with the Fibro pain. Then my knees (that need surgery) are unstable & causing me to stumble & use Codeine….Walking has been rough I can tell you….so we are falling apart ‘gracefully’ together!!! I was out today & must go for groceries tomorrow….Sunday & Monday I am staying home & resting!!! (Which means doing litter & chores & cleaning, hahaha!!!)
    Try to pace yourself, if possible ok?? Also do not get down on yourself if you can’t meet your own deadlines; that only makes the Fibro pain worse πŸ˜‰
    Much love Sherri-Ellen xoxoxo

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    • Sherri-Ellen I think of you too and the struggles with your health..stumbling and bumbling and shuffling along….we make a great team!! you make sure you take care too and get some feline healing πŸ˜‰ always my fave medicine! Much Love Bev xxxxxx

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  14. Aww, we love you Fozziemum, please take all the time you need to feel better. My Mom has Fibromyalgia, so I know a little about what you are going through and really feel for you. It is a nasty illness that makes every day things feel akin to climbing mount Everest… barefoot and backwards. We are hugging you from a far, wishing you lots healing naps, a good cup of tea under a shady tree, A foot rub (are you reading this Fozziedad?!) and endless cold noses & wagging tails to brighten up each day XO

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    • Awww my sweet friends thankyou πŸ™‚ it is a pill that;s for sure..i took the time to go visit a favourite spot yesterday and recharge my batteries…I already feel better just from being out with nature πŸ™‚ Fozziedad indeed looks after me πŸ˜‰ and I love the cold noses and wagging tails πŸ™‚ hugs Fozziemum xxx

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  15. I never have a problem reading your posts. They are very enjoyable to read and your pictures are always super great. You are doing a lot better blogging than I would be if I had to live with all the pain and issues that you do. To keep going and doing all that you do is amazing to me and I have much respect for you. You are a strong lady. I too am very far behind in reading and commenting on blogs and the only excuse I have is that I have had visitors every day for almost 3 weeks. They were not here 24 hours so I still really have no excuse. Hugs!

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    • Thanks so much my sweet..i feel a lot better now I have rested up a bit…getting out in nature always helps..and yes visitor can really take our time up bwahahaha πŸ™‚ hugs back to you Fozziemum..and thankyou for your lovely words πŸ™‚

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  16. Never ever fret Miss Bev if you miss visits to us for weeks…we know where to find you…hanging around that lovely reservoir! *snicker*…I have so offended my former readers that I had less than half as many even show up for my second blogiversary compared to last year. I had 26 likes last year, only 10 today and last year I had 70 comments, about 30 today. I can only do what I can do about time to read and comment on others whilst I am also writing my own, trying to help Mom and Dad earn some green papers working again…and then our rescue work…we are right here for you…paw hugs, Nana and Mom Linda

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    • I don’t think that people truly understand Savvy..some blog for fun and forget that some blogs have a truly important message..really if you follow blogs that are animal rescue focused you must understand that animal rescue involves money time and commitment..this cannot be achieved unless you are OFF the net and acting in the real world..this we understand…we will always visit and comment and show our appreciation as we know what it takes..i would always rather have a few genuine fun followers than a lot of people who don’t get me…we get you Savvy…you mum Linda and dad Peter and even…the KID πŸ˜‰ ❀ ,3 xxx Miss Bev and all the gang xxx

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        • Aww Savvy tell mum to dry her eyes..not everyone gets it..i have been out of rescue for a while..it takes a special dedication that I know too well..my heart has been hurt badly by the things I have seen and experienced and it will take a while for me to be able to do this again..so I know the work involved..it is one thing to say you care and another to sacrifice..i don’t mind sacrifice it’s the images I can’t shake..so keep the chin up and keep the head down and don’t you worry about the likes the follows the anything else..real world demands real time actions..and on that my sweet I head of to do my chores πŸ™‚ loves and hugs and a tissue for mum xxxx Miss Bev

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