Show and tell Thursday


Hi everyone..buddy Bacon   is having his Flashback day and today it’s the toy you always wanted but never got…ok..mine was NOT a toy and this item I yearned year after year….ask anyone who knows me even as an adult I still have a whine because it was my  dream item ..always on my Santa list…

 

Yes 72 Derwent studio pencils….I could not find an Original packet picture….which made me sadder than you can imagine…

You see my childhood involved creativity…I lost myself in books anything on Dinosaurs, Archaeology, Space travel, Animals..loved it ..and the next thing that was up there also was drawing and making things..i was actually a good little artist…

When the obsession started it was a girl in my class that i sat next to.She arrived at the beginning of the school year with this box…and when she plonked down next to me and opened that box I was in Love!

I had never seen such color choice..and the smell of fresh new pencils…ahhhh she was a nice girl and I cannot remember her name but she shared with me this magical box of opportunities.

So it began my subtle and also not so subtle hinting for these Derwents..now my parents were actually not badly off when I was little..we had a boat a new house and were luckier than so many others..I know these pencils would not have been cheap.. of course a child doesn’t know this..

I would ramp up the hinting as it got close to my August birthday..and when that came and went..i would make do and as Christmas came closer the hinting took a full throttle approach..not to mention I thought I had more chance as I had Santa on my side..surely he knew I was desperate for them…clearly Santa could care less….I would dive into my Santa bag and fossick in a fashion I maintain today at bargain tables…and then maybe at the bottom of the bag.a packet ..a sad cardboard packet of Staedlers…or even worse Columbias…my little artistic heart would sink…

These pencils lacked the color..the soft tips..the smell and style of a Derwent….all I could hope was that come the beginning of the school year maybe just maybe I would get 72 Derwents..

To give you an idea of how much I loved to draw..if I ran out of paper I would draw on the bottom of my slippers..i was meant to create…but how with these lack lustre pencils..

And then the next year the hinting would start a fresh..and I was subtle..example..one Uncle worked for a chocolate factory…and when I knew he was going to visit I used to draw..yes draw a box of chocolates…and on the box I would write “gifting chocolates” he would say “And what are gifting chocolates?” and I would say…” They are chocolates you gift to children when you visit their house”…Subtle hey 😉

When I was looking for an original picture on the net I came across the fact that there is actually a Derwent pencil Museum!!!!  that would have had my tiny child self in an absolute frenzy of excitement….

I still have goes at my mum for never encouraging my need to be creative and ask her why I never got them..and she laughs and says “We just  didn’t think it was important”

I rest my childhood case..it was never even about the money…5 years ago my old neighbour from where we used to live came over on my birthday with a gorgeous card and a little packet..i opened it an she had written ” To a little girl who should have been encouraged to pursue her talents” and the gift a box of watercolour Derwents…

I can’t have that time back…and that’s ok….I  never got the 72 Derwents ..but that’s ok ..because what I got was knowledge…and so when my daughter became an artist and our sons became musicians I could say…you were encouraged…

So who knows one day I may still get those 72 Derwents…and when I do I am going to buy a coloring book …put my pj’s on grab a bag of mixed lollies and have a grand time 🙂

95 thoughts on “Show and tell Thursday

  1. Can completely understand your heartbreak about never having that set of pencils 😦 I was lucky to be the niece of an architect and my wish pretty much was her desire when it came to artists materials – spoiled rotten but Bored? Never for a minute!

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  2. Terrific post, thank you. It reminds me of a similar story that cropped up every August when Mom would take us shopping for back to school supplies. Laurentian brand pencil crayons were THE pencil crayon of the “in crowd.” Mom bought us cheap knock-offs. It’s all she could afford. That did not stop me from whining and pleading and carrying on.

    To this day I see boxes like the one you picture here, and drool. The watercolour kind are nothing short of magical, in my mind.

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    • Thank you so much and I am glad it bought back some memories…indeed the moments we remember are still so vivid..time has a way of standing still when I think back to these childhood desires …and yes magical indeed!! 🙂 hugs Fozziemum

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    • Hahaaaahaha I have been tempted to have a go at charcoals too.my Auntie’s second hubby did wonderful charcoal drawings and they lost all of them on Ash Wednesday when the house burnt to the ground in the bushfires…and those are moments and images draw in the moment so they can never be replaced..i can’t draw that well either..it has been awhile..:) xxx

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  3. Momwithoutpaws is weird she says she likes the smell of pencils and crayon, glue to but that is against the law. Elmers not airplane 😀

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  4. Substitute Crayola Crayons and you have my story. My mom had a box of 64 but wouldn’t let us kids use them, we got the basket of broken bits. She wanted them all to herself (how selfish!!!) I now have a box of 64. I don’t let kids touch them. Mom did know best.

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  5. I agree, the taste was much important…. I made my own “aquarells” with my tongue :o) It’s sad that you never got the whole pack of 72 Derwents. Maybe there were much more kids who dreamt the same dream and therefore they even have a museum today? I learnt that the dreams of my childhood should better stay there, one of my objects of desire were ice skates brandnew and not the cast-off thingies of my cousins. I bought a pair in italy and tried to join the stars on ice crew immediately… the time at the hospital was not so bad as I thought, because it was allowed to smoke in the waiting room…

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    • Haahahaaah I only ice skated once..i was with high shool people,.my satin flares split from the bttom of the zip right up my butt to the waistband….I stick to roller skating ans skate boarding after that..i never got a good fibre glass skateboard either come to think of it hahahaa ) and funny remember i could smoke in hospital …you could smoke while you shopped..and in planes bwahahaahha 🙂

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      • oh the good ole times! I remember that they even smoked in tv in nearly all movies, serials and talk shows…My pawrents were stingy too as I want a skate board, I’ve got a cheap one… and I kissed the boardwalk immediately…

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  6. WE had Crayons once…. ERNIE ate 3 and Pooped Technicolor fur Days…
    Our mom says that there is nothing like a Box of Crayons… so she can SURELY understand your love of the colored pencils.

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    • Bwahaahahh nothing like a techno poo Ernie! our mush missed rottie Eich once ate a thin pink rubber glove..i looked out the window and had a massive freak out as I though his bowels were coming out when he was pooping…sheesh…and yep pencils crayons charcoals..all fab!!! hugs and loves Fozziemum xx

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  7. Oh goodness. I think today there will not be a dry eye here at the Hotel Thompson. Awesome story my friend. I absolutely ❤ it with all my piggy heart. XOXO – Bacon

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  8. fozziemum…we toll nyla…..everee one…peepulz & animals a like dee serve ta haz toyz….noe matter yur age …de food serviss gurl still haz toys; sum frum her child hood, sum from dayz like now like her gameboy advance, N will ta de day her dies…

    all sew chex out thiz linx ♥♥♥♥♥

    http://www.ebay.com/sch/i.html?_trksid=p2050601.m570.l1313.TR0.TRC0.H0.Xderwent+studio+pencils.TRS0&_nkw=derwent+studio+pencils&_sacat=0&_from=R40

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  9. Bless your heart! Isn’t it weird how the things that we didn’t get remain with us forever? I think that is why my children had so much when they were growing up. Over compensating for being a deprived child! LOL!

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    • Hahaaaaa we never spoilt our kids but with their creative desires we let them go..and we have never regretted it..i had many a bru ha ha with teachers unwilling to accept that some kids talents are creative not academic! hugs Bev xx

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  10. It’s funny the things you yearn for as a child! Our grandpa was an artist, so the whole family was encouraged to do things.

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    • That is wonderful! my mum did oil paintings..my grandpa sketched police horses as he was a policeman…and yet we were never really encouraged..i often think that the sciences are seen as the ONLY skill a child needs when having creativity is just as important…I draw and sew and cook and knit and crochet and garden I used to throw pots on a wheel I give everything a go now…and it makes you a much happier peep to get your hands and heart in sync and create 🙂 hugs and loves Fozziemum xx

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  11. Dude! I know exactly! …We were given a pack of 12 Derwents probably as a Christmas present when we needed them for school anyway. I could probably almost tell you the shades’ order and sooo remember loving that special smell. I think yellow was 1st. on left then orange, red. My sister and I so badly wanted a packet of 24s and had maybe seen 36s in a shop which we realised were unattainable.
    Brings up some painful memories in how non valued we were as little potentially creative, deserving people. My parents had money, but we never owned that 24 pack of Derwents.

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    • I understand totally! it did continue with many of my desires to be creative..hence the importance Hubby and I put on our kids creative needs to be met..yes we had no money problems at all…as a adult now I know how well off we were for the time..it was truly my one thing…and yes the smell 🙂 ad the range!! whenever I see things now I will say to hubby oh that’s the same color as that particular Derwent!..i can see myself sitting in the lounge..tongue sticking out as I concentrated so hard on drawing….big hugs and just know that the lessons we learned are so much better than the experience we had ❤ ❤

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    • Thank you Linda and Cinnamon 🙂 we have missed you in our feed then I saw your post..so sad that peeps feel the need to be so horrid…sending loves and hugs from afar…the world needs more Cinnamon and less nasty xxx Hugs Bev xx

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  12. Oh Bev I am teary eyed reading about your Derwents or rather lack thereof….
    What a poignant story. I do not think your Mother meant any hearm; much like my Father….they just did not see what was so important to us about thses items.
    Go buy some Derwents & get artistic; I am seriously considering buying a train set!!!!! 😉
    Love Sherri-Ellen x0x0x0

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    • Oh Sherri-Ellen I agree..we were just kids..and not really seen as people as such hahaha 🙂 the same ideals continued when I wanted to become a chef…just bypassed as a non important wish…one day I will go buy some…for now the GFC (Global Fence Crisis) takes top priority hahahaha 🙂 and you go girl….:) gotta scoot before the even nastier weather hits…tis a brrr day 🙂 talk soon doll Loves Bev xx

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  13. Oh Fozziemum your story made us all very sad. Parents can be very destructive in their attempts at “good parenting”. Our Auntie Kym (mom’s sister) is a creative who wanted to study design or fashion but our grandpa insisted she attend university and get an academic degree…she never finished her degree and now has no formal qualification creative or academic.
    We hope you get those pencils one day.
    Wally & Sammy
    xxx

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    • Indeed the same here guys..i wanted to leave school in year 11 and g to a college and study to be a chef..i have also loved cooking all my life..my father said no ..even though my high school grades were straight A’s so it was clear I was not an idiot..the night he sat at our table and said I should open a restaurant I nearly leapt the table and flattened him bwahaahha…that and many other reasons are why I no longer speak to him..parents have so much power and sadly they sometimes weild it like a sword..one day I will get them thar pencils 😉 and have a grand time hhaa 🙂 hugs and loves Fozziemum …pee ess I hope Auntie Kym finds a way to harness her creative and go for it 🙂 xx

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  14. Ooooh! I love pencils like that as well and crayons – all the colours you can think of! I am glad you got them Bev. Now I’d love to see your colouring pics. I also love colouring in but haven’t done that for quite a while. Enjoy and have fun! 😀 ♥ Big Hugs ♥

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  15. WHAT FUN…MOM STILL HAS A TON OF MY HUMAN SIS’S TOYS FROM THE 70’S EVEN A LITE BRIGHT AND TWO BOXES OF NEEKED BARBIES (DOLLS)MOL MOL WE KNOW BARBIES ARE SOMETHING DIFFERENT DOWN UNDER
    HUGS MADI AND MOM

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  16. Aw, that would have been a fabulous gift — especially since you wanted it so much. It’s never too late, Bev, so you should get those pencils for yourself! Especially since you seem to still long for them! I remember once getting a child’s “artist” box of pastel chalks. Absolutely loved it. My favorite subject in kindergarten? Why finger painting, of course! 😆

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    • Linda I may just do that..and chalks and pastels and crayons charcoal..loved them all..and fingerpainting..I used to love making patterns in potatoes and dipping them in paints and splodging them on butchers paper..butcher’s paper ..there is a blast form the past! 🙂 🙂

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    • I say go for it!! it is indeed a great way to take yourself into a far more tranquil place 🙂 and we all have these adorable animals to use as muses 🙂 I may yet get them..i might write to Santa 😉

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  17. Aww. I loved this post so much! I think you should SEND this post to Derwent, Bev!
    I was and am obsessed with stationary and I just loved the way you described your delight in them!
    You’ll get them one day and it’ll be so special when you do… that’s also a good friend you have there!
    Hugs, Carrie and pups x

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    • I agree she is a good friend..and yes I love all the crafty stuff…gets you so excited with the promise of what can be created! I may just send them that post 🙂 hugs and loves Fozziemum xx

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  18. oh, Mom L so loved to draw when she was little. She even was given a ‘how to draw’ kit for Christmas one year. But lessons cost money and they didn’t have much to spare. I am happy your neighbor remembered the little girl who needed encouragement and now that same little girl inside you gets to do whatever she wants…have a lovely time with your water color Derwents

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    • Thank you Savvy indeed creating things is so important for little people it helps them to express the beauty that the world has to offer..drawing was always such a great place for this little girl to retreat from a dysfunctional family life,,,and yes I enjoy still to draw and create..i love to see something appear from out of my imagination 🙂 my girlfriend indeed was very sweet to give me those watercolours 🙂 hugs and loves Fozziemum x

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  19. LOL Bev I wanted to take Piano lessons but we could not afford it & I was not so talented remembering the keys…so my Piano & your Chef aspirations went up in smoke….
    I hear you about the GFC; I have had PFC here (Patio Furniture Crisis).
    I now have a single chair & 2 end tables to go with the benches so enough seating & tables. But with Sun blazing down no one wants to sit out there now.
    *sighs*
    Love Sherri-Ellen x0x0x0

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    • Urghhh always the childhood ideas that turn to crap…I am glad your PFC is sorted but bummer about the heat!!! hope ot cools a bit so you can g out and enjoy it with Nylablue 🙂 loves Bev xxx ❤ ❤

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  20. :0 I have been out ont he patio the past 3 days with Nylablue reading a new book. I feel more comfortable now. PFC over & I have enough furniture to entertain (if I want to).
    I decided I would like to buy a standing umbrella with its own base. This way I get some shade & privacy; now to find one in this hick town I call *home*….
    Weather is good too; a bit hot but not over the top 🙂
    Love Sherri-Ellen & Nylablue xxx

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    • Glad you have been enjoyin some sun..it’s raining a bit today and Phil is trying to get this GFC finished…I am only popping on here quickly as my eyes are in a really bad way..i was not on the computer yesterday as I just canlt see properly and it hurts my eyes…sheesh..still no letter from the hospital on a apt with a rheumy..i may go back to my Dr this week..i can’t wait forever like this to see a rheumy…urghh..getting a standing umbrella or Brolly as we call them here is a great idea I hope you can source one..and a good read sounds great to me 🙂 I will get round to visit blogs soon..for now it’s too hard 😦 loves Bev xxx ❤ ❤

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  21. Hi Bev: It is now Sunday nite here…sorry i did not reply sooner. It has been one of ‘those’ days (pain)…I did some cleaning (too much) & sat out on patio with Nylablue in Condo (& read). had a friend for coffee too…
    So how are your eyes today (being Monday there)???
    How is the GFC project coming along???
    I researched brollys’ & bases & I can’t afford one (CRAP!)
    At this point I am fed up with the whole deal; so will just go out for an hour in morning & then go out after 2 pm in afternoon…it is what it is 😉
    Much love Sherri-Ellen & Nylablue ❤ ❤

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    • No overdoing the cleaning….says me..the GFC is coming along..quite well…and my eyes..urghhh nup still waiting to hear from a rheumy…go get some sleeps and I am rugging up as it is cold as today 🙂 brrrrr hugs and loves Bev xxx ❤ ❤

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  22. I am sorry the eyes are bothering you so badly. You definitely need the Rheumy Doc ASAP!!
    i di doverdo it cleaning 😉 Piad for it today. Only got small chores & litter done. Spent rest of day sitting on patio reading….Nylablue enjoyed me being with her…..
    WOW just found out at 8:10 pm Modnay nite Robin Williams is dead; I am in shock! I see you posted on FB also. What there H*LL is happening to all our wonderful entertainers??
    Sorry it hits home as my hubby Kevin took his life in ’03. So did my Sister-In-law in ’93 & my Aunt Katie back when I was 15 (she was 61). The 60s’ are starting to scare me….
    Well here we are….
    Love S-E.

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  23. Sorry about all the spelling mistakes; typing by nite lite again, haha!
    Robin Williams had gone into treatment in July. He got care I am sure. Problem is people can hide Depression VERY well & suicide is always the last thing suspected of a depressed person….Depressed & suicidal people can hide their illness & intentions so well their own spouses do not suspect a thing. Trust me on that!! Kevin fooled me. My Sister-In-Law Trinka fooled all of us.
    I fooled my family years ago when I tried twice. I have been on both sides of this & it is the worst things in the world. His family will be scarred for life…I know I am… 😦
    It is all so tragic…..

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    • Indeed I agree it can be so well hidden….even when it obvious sometimes these poor people slip through the cracks…my boys lost a mate at 19 to suicide…he hung himself in his bedroom..his parents tried everything but the system failed them…such a sad sad thing 😦 😦 😦

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  24. I can tell you from personal experience there is alot of help available here however we are inundated with mental health issue people; in fact the big cities bus people up to our little city to get mental health help & addiction treatment. All well & good however local people are falling apart at the seams. Makes no sense.
    I had a phone intake last Thursday with a Counsellor & his 1st appt is Sept 29th…
    He said I could call Crisis Line if needed & I replied “So I can be put on hold for 25 minutes??”
    That happened to me twice & I had a mini breakdown…..
    There are not enough counsellors or Pysche people here to deal with all of us….
    It is a scary world….
    I will say Robin Williams has helped me in his death. He made me stop the denial & go for help & to speak out about suicide & Depression….His death will not be for nothing….
    Love Sherri-Ellen x0x0

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    • It is a crisis everywhere my sweet..our system is shyte…mental health hospitals have not been top priority..we have some..but not many ..we have hotlines of course but I think the biggest problem is the attitude towards people with problems..still that stigma..i agree his death is no in vain…people have made comment about his humour his money how big his house was..means nothing..not a damn thing..the only person in your mind is you..alone no monetary trappings..just you ..and it can be a lonely scary place…I di my tribute to him and others the other day on my more serious bloggie..and I think it is an honest interpretation ..I wish him well on his journey as it can only be more peaceful…but so very sad..i am glad you spoke to someone..you are a darling and have had a shyte time of late which can bubble up…love ya to bits xxxx Bev xx

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  25. We used to have actual proper mental health facilities in theh big cities. Now there are only a few. People are shuffled thru Psyche wards & medicated to the nines & then sent out to function. We have a few healthy mental health people here but the rest of them are all messed up. Housing says they have to take them which is insane in itself. We also have developmentally challenged & the one girl needs to be in a proper setting. She is 40 but has mentality of 10 yr old on her own. She follows everybody, even strangers! She has taken to looking into peoples cars to see if anyone is inside & also she goes thru the dryers looking at peoples clothes etc. The girl’s sister comes once or twice a month but will not listen to concerns & Housing says it is not their responsibility…..
    Same with the mentally ill in here. When Rob (name changed) walked into Ruth’s apartment & she was in undies she freaked out. she called Housing & she was told it was HER fault for forgetting to lock her door! Rob goes around trying ALL the single womens’ doors…..how is that OUR fault???
    I swear it is like living in a lock down ward!
    😦 As for me I have PTSD plus Anxiety & moderate Agorphobia & clinical Depression….I am a barrel of laughs……

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    • You are a barrel of laughs my darling! but look at what you do!! you are a caring compassionate and loving human..a rare quality..not only that you do what you do by yourself..a huge acheivement..you still manage to laugh smile and care for the poor kitties that come your way..you do not use any problems you may have as an excuse to let the world go by or be heartless…my mum has been unwell for over half a century…and to survive what she has she must be damn tough…and here in Australia the poor peeps with problems slip through the cracks..ending up homeless..in ER departmens in jail..i think the same problem exists world wide 😦 xx

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  26. Same here for the seriously mentally ill: ER’s; jails; homeless; addicted to drugs….so so sad!
    Soemtimes people here do not want to get help or ‘wet well’ & they use the Psyche Ward like a hotel; burns out the Nurses & Doctors. It is hard for everyone.
    I do have a good support network of friends here. Sheila & CathyJean are Nylablue’s chaffeurs for Vet appts. I have a handful of friends in the building who I can call on for advice or a chat. I have a support group online. Friends all over the world. I refuse to whine about stuff (altho the patio palaver did warrant a few good rants!!)
    I seek solutions to problems. I do not like to wallow in self pity.
    Helping the cats & doing rescue & taking care of Nylablue & blogging bring me joy & give me purpose.
    This year has been a rollercoaster with all that I have been thru & I have had immense support & love so I have to remember this. I might be physically alone with Nylablue but I am not ALONE in the global sense.
    When one helps another one helps myself….. 😉
    Youa re right about wealth & possessions & Depression. Strip all of us of our ‘stuff’ (as much or as little as we have) & we are all equal….
    ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

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    • Indeed we are sweets…we are all alone in our minds…for good or bad..i am glad you have your networks…and we all love the connections we have made blogging..and I hope the roller coaster slows down for you..at least the damnable Patio palaver has ended…sheesh….<3 ❤ ❤

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  27. so true Bev. Alot of the time I am all right in my mind…as long as I have time to recover from each episode of change or Nylablue’s health issues. When it all hits at once then I have trouble.
    You also right, now that patio palaver is over I can breathe again. I know the replacing of the siding is going to happen soon however that is all 2nd floor & it won’t as traumatic for us…not sure about noise factor but I will deal with it when it happens.
    As for the pine tree no one wants to assist me in getting Housing to plant a maple sapling & I have let go of that idea. There is no point in railing against the world.
    I am making the best of a bad situation & trying to enjoy what is left of our summer…. 😉
    Thanks for being such a good support…..
    Love Sherri-Ellen x0x0

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    • Sherri-Ellen…you are my idea of true grit..and you are more than the sum of your family..you are such a darling and I am so glad we are mates..i hope you year gets better from now and that sun shines on you in more ways than one my sweet friend 🙂 time expended on deaf ears is time wasted 🙂 always here my sweets Love Bev xx

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  28. 🙂 Why Thank ya Ma’am…just call me ‘Johnn Wayne’ for sure!!
    I refuse to give up, surrender, throw in the towel….I want to be the pwman CREATOR meant for me to be! So I work towards THAT goal.
    You are right that talking to people (whether family or friends) that do nost respond (deaf ears) is a waste of time & energy. I have people here; I have people in town; I have true blue friends…
    I feel a bit better today…I hold on to the ‘good’ days. 😉
    Thank you for being such a good friend!
    Love Sherri-Ellen ❤ ❤

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  29. ROFWL>>> love that saying!
    People who ‘drain’ can take a train…..whether family or friends who do not give support but expect it all the time. I love my fair weather friends who call & FB ONLY when they need help; advice; a shoulder to cry on; yet not there for me…
    I know who my actual friends are & who the acquaintenances are; there is a definite difference isn’t there Bev???
    I count you as a true blur friend & i am ALWAYS here for you despite the few kabillion miles between us 😉
    (((((HUGS))))) Sherri-Ellen 🙂

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