A million miles away


There are days I wish I was a million miles away..nothing bad is happening …no real reason..just the day and the mood.

I wonder how honest most people are with themselves….or others…

The reason for the mood this morning is really nothing..that’s right..just woke up and thought urghhh.

Some days I don’t really feel like I am in the zone…I am sure some peeps will think I am complaining and really i’m not..i just pondered as I replaced the kitty litter trays for the second time..and cleaned a patch of pee that one of the girls had left on the bedroom carpet.. just how many of us have those days.

The usual shenanigans at brekkie time.. watching Dinnermintz  doesn’t eat what Pickles  has left because she is off her food, being barked at for not hurrying with the morning meal…stopping Marbles  smacking Cleo because she has woken in a mood too.

The fires out again…cleaning up the ash and dragging more wood in has no allure this morning.. if I don’t, despite the day being warm, it will be cold in here tonight.

Forrest wants to go out the front.. he is not allowed.. he digs up my garden looking for kitty nuggets..so I let him out the back.. meanwhile a baby bunny is running around in the front yard..so off to scare him off.. come back in Forrest is barking…he wants in..again..

I go to make the bed.. i forget the cat bowl was out and Dinnermintz  on a diet decides she will go for it..

I hear her collar on the bowl and bolt out and put it away.

Forrest barks.. he wants out..again..i feel like a “door bitch” as they call them at clubs.. opening closing doors all day.

Back to making the bed…which hurts my back due to weeding yesterday on rough stones…awesome.

Phone rings.. telemarketer.. ah…no.. dishes done.. the Pickles  has decided she wants her food so out with the bowl again.. while Dinnermintz  keeps vigil..so I stand and wait.

She eats a bit..i put her bowl away again.. Forrest barks.. he wants in.. again…I let him in..someone has just used the trays..so another tray change..

Dishes now…from the brekky I could not eat in peace..one cat wanting to push into my plate and steal my toast..one dog wanting out..one cat trying to start a blue with another one..

A load of washing out…one in ..rubbish  emptied.. ready to go in the bin…

Forrest wants out…………..again………….the fire is well and truly out…need to go gather some kindling….keeping an eye out for snakes.. and then clean the firebox and start a fire.. big wood is in the trailer right at the back…means pulling the smaller pieces forward and that is great on the back too.

The shower and both bathrooms need cleaning. floors need sweeping and vaccuming..

Forrest is in again…and asleep now…..thankyou….

Quick phone call to mum.. she is busy…quick phone call with my sister.. she is in the same mood..

I have more weeding to do..i just can’t find the mojo.. but  I will..

When people say how lovely we have all this land I agree.. but some days it seems an impossible task to get everything done .Phil got most of the snake mesh stapled to the outside of the back fence yesterday.. we hear the burn off restrictions may come in in October…sheesh..

Great Forrest wants out.. and I can smell the litter tray..again…

I love my life..i love my animals and my home but today…all i can think of is running away..to a place where there are no litter trays.. where I can eat a meal without interruptions ..where if  open a door it is because I am heading out to have some fun….anyone who has not had children I can tell you this is what it is like to be a parent.. the commitment the time the sometimes mundane and monotonous the routine of life with pets is just the same.

I wonder how many pet owners will be disgusted with my attitude today? I wonder how many pet owners will fess up and admit there are days they are tired.. days they think it is all too hard.

I will never regret having pets and I know I have made a promise to them for life..i am happy to go without and to sacrifice for them..my choice.. and I adore them.. but some days I wish I was a million miles away.. and I know if I was I would miss them and pine for them and want to be with them.

For today I am here.. and I just have to get on with it.. tomorrow is a new day…

 

 

95 thoughts on “A million miles away

  1. Fozzie, I will admit there are days I could cry for the limitations I put on myself by being a pet owner. And yes the mundane routine is mind numbing some days. I admit it. Yet I love my cats until I think my heart will explode. Other days, no. I made a commitment and that commitment stays, just like a long marriage. (smile) xx Amy

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    • Amy thank you….some days I think I am so over it..and I feel so guilty…today I am really low..just so tired and I wondered if any other pet owners had these days..seems I am not alone :)…and yes I love them so much..and hey my kids were the same …I guess we just need a break every now and then 🙂 and yep just like a marriage 🙂 hugs Bev xx

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      • Bev, unfortunately for me, I am not able to take a break. I must make time in windows of hours if I wish to even get out of this house. Some of mine have become so attached to me due to their illnesses. Some days I don’t even want to get out of bed, but then I make a hard manual switch and try to do something that day which is fun. I really wish you all the best. Some days are downright tough! Love, Amy

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        • I feel for you Amy…with me I can’t escape too long due to the workload here as well…I have time out in my head..and I have had days where staying in bed is all I want to do…but get up I must….I send my hugs to you and hope your day is a great one 🙂 Love Bev xx

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          • Remember, this too shall pass, Bev. You can always make plans on what you want to do when this part of your life is over. That way, you have something glorious to look forward and not one big empty space. You must fill that big hole in your heart (as I do) when our babies leave. There is a high price to pay for freedom, and we will be paying. So until that day, LOVE your babies and make plans for a new life for YOU. (((HUGS))) Amy

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              • Just know, Bev, that day will come for me too and just writing about it puts tears in my eyes. I MUST have something magnificent to look forward to in order to fill that emptiness. I could too easily slip into depression and not come out. So even though there are days when we are fed up, know the LOVE you have now, and cherish it. Just looking at my cats brings such a sense of JOY to my Heart. I cherish that. (((HUGS))) Amy

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  2. omg I sooo wish I could give you a hug! We ALL have those days!!! You are human my dear! xoxo Sorry I have been missing the past few days. We had severe storms AGAIN and were without internet/TV for almost 24 hrs. Signed on to over 1000 emails which I am STILL digging through! Sending MUCH LOVE!!!

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    • Thank you my sweets 🙂 I am glad I am not alone! I a so sorry you have had such bad weather…I really hope you stay safe my sweets and urghhh all those emails…sheesh….sending huge loves back to you too 🙂 🙂 Loves Bev xxxx ❤

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    • Layla..I blame the full moon here too and yes my head has been pounding 😉 I hope you house settles also..it really does get you in the mood to run! hugs and loves Fozziemum..oh awesome boys want in again…arghhhhhh xxxx

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  3. I will book us a table at Barry’s coffee shop. An hour at the corner of Barry and High st Northcote and you will be not only be cheered up but happy to get back to where the air isn’t a gentle shade of yellow/grey. ❤

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  4. It’s okay, FozzieMum. Hey, we ALL have days like that, so we would never judge of think less of you. Sending virtual hugs and encouragement to you. Here’s to a new tomorrow! 🙂

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  5. If only we lived closer, and I drank, oh, the stories I could tell! I can’t count the number of times I wished all the dogs would run away. But then the guilt sets in, or one of the kids shows the slightest bit of stress from who knows what, and then I swing way to the other side, going overboard just to make things right. I guess guilt is Mother Nature’s way of telling us we’re OK after having “impure” thoughts:)

    Signed, the one who would love to know what it’s like to sleep until daylight, at least once before she dies.

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    • Hahahahahh I can WELL imagine…it is awful the guilt..i get overwhelmed with it when I crack it here…the bark alarm wake up ..the constant excitement..i think you and I would run to nearest spa….ahhhhh good grief it will be tea time soon….think I might hide hahaah 🙂 loves Fozzimum

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  6. OMC…..Mom knows just what you mean. Letting me in and out somedays is too much when I can’t make up my mind. Cleaning out kitty litter pans just so Kali and I can fight over who will use it first. She says somedays it would be nice if we could open the door, eat our food without barfing and leave her be. So we know where you’re coming from.

    Here have a Nipitini….you’ll feel better. hahaha

    Sloppy licks,

    Shoko

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  7. i could relate to you.. i too admit that there are some days i do feel the same.. i don’t know and i’m not sure but it’s just the mood, yes, i’m blaming the mood.. being a mum to humans and furbabes is a very hard job.. sometimes i feel that i am just too tired doing all the things but like you i love the furbabes to bits.. i can’t do without them but well, we’re just human.. maybe we are just too tired… too tired of the monotonous routines.. sometimes i wish to take a vacation all by myself, doing nothing but relax but i just can’t, i will miss the furries.. as you said, tomorrow is another day and i’m sure you would feel better.. hugs.

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    • Oh indeed my sweet being a mum to pets or furries is at times tiring 🙂 it seems even though my kids have all grown up I still have pets that are like 3 year olds…so seems I am not alone in feeling the urghhs 🙂 we do love them to bits..no denying..but yes a solo holiday would be divine 🙂 hugs back to you to sweets 🙂 Bev x

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  8. I’m thinking it may be the time of year…the change of season…the cycle of the moon because I am in the exact same funk and as a result spent the majority of the weekend on the bed sleeping (never a good sign for me).
    Personally, I’m going through a “feeling unappreciated” phase at home which of course has resulted in an argument … nothing will change … life will go on.
    I know how lucky I am in my life, I appreciate my life and all that I have but some days (like this past weekend) I could just pack a bag and disappear.
    Hope you are feeling better today
    Robyn
    xxx

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    • Robyn you poor darling…it’s certainly a popular mood it seems..urghhhh as for feeling unappreciated…yep…trying to get a point across sometimes is like throwing a fart into the wind…somedays I feel like I still have a house full of little kids..to be not relied upon would be blissful..i took myself down to the back paddock…plonked on an old swing chair closed my eyes and listened to the crazy wind we have at the moment…it almost sounded like the beach..then the dogs started carrying on up near the house..came back some bloke was poking around in my septic…leave me alone dude…mannnn….sending you my loves and hugs..and hope your week ahead is a bit brighter 🙂 loves Bev xxx pee ess all else fails..oh to Tahiti..you me and all the other poor gals out there who have had a gutful 🙂 ❤

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    • I am sure they are too hahaah 🙂 it’s all in the perspective 🙂 went down the paddock closed my eyes listened to the crazy wind here and it sounded like the beach 🙂 ahhhhh just an over tired grump today ..doggie kisses will help Loves Fozziemum xx

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  9. Oh Bev, those days come to us all. Walk away from everything you don’t NEED to do today and return to the fray when you are stronger. My biggest regret is being unable to have a garden I’m proud of as they dig up everything in search of those nuggets 😀 Keep Calm and Carry On! xxx

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    • Annie thankyou..yep the search for nuggets…at least now the front is out of bounds..but the girls do a number on it …then I saw bunny and I was like…..well you can imagine..yep tis a great joy to have pets..but the battle for survival in us humans sometimes takes a hit hahahaah 🙂 I have done jack squat today..now I am being stared down for dinner…I love you Forrest but jeez lousie ….hahaaah hugs to you my sweets 🙂 xxxx

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  10. I can safely say we ALL wake up in a runaway mood now and then. I just know that if I started getting ready to finally make a break for it, Cupcake would be right there with that face, and we’d end up running away together and starting the same rituals in a different place. Why bother…..? 🙂

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  11. Oh indeed we’ve all been there and done that (well maybe not DONE it, but wished we could anyway)…..you have a LOT on your plate there on that beautiful chunk of land surrounded by mother nature and her beauty AND problems and on top of that a house full of animals who are in constant need of “something”. Add to that your cooking, cleaning, family, photography, health issues – IT’S A WHOLE LOT OF “STUFF” BEV!!!! Stopping once in a while for a “get away from it all spa day” or even just changing up the routine is important or your head will explode…… 😉 Sending hugs……it’s the best I can do I’m afraid!!!

    Love, Pam

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    • Oh Pam you made me laugh..the visual of my head exploding in particular…I was hoping I was not alone in being a grump with the pets sometimes..i took a walk down the back and sat on the swing chair and closed my eyes and listened to the wind..was perfect:)… I think we all get a little stir crazy…and as silence descends upon the house tonight I am enjoying the thought of raiding the pantry for some chocolate I am SURE is in there…your best is just perfect for me my sweets 🙂 Loves Bev xxx

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      • Love you too…….just when we think we simply can’t stand it any longer……there’s a cool breeze, or a smile, or complete quiet……it’s a little “battery recharge” and we all need that!

        Love, Pam

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        • I agree….always something to recharge us..watching the horses enjoy the day was lovely too…even the little miniature was being left alone by the big boys today to enjoy some quiet…he may want to run away too..those big horse do round him up a bit hahaahh 🙂 Love Bev x

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  12. I so get you Bev. It sometimes seems as endless loop of clean up and take care of, and wears a person down. Give, give, give and some days we are just in the mood to sit and take for a change, but cannot. I loved my dogs to death, but there were days after cleaning up the kitchen floor for the 4th time I thought I would would explode. Then I would have a pang of guilt for thinking it, but realized it came from a place of exhaustion.I would be driving on the highway and think to myself I am just going to keep driving- disappear for a bit- let someone else deal with it and change up the routine. Of course I never did. Instead I would hold them close to remind me of why I love them despite the monotony of the work they add. We all have days where we get up and for seemingly no reason we are cranky – do something good for yourself today- treat yourself to something away from the house- you may come back refreshed a bit and ready to take it all on. ❤ ❤

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    • Sweets thank you so much..i know the feeling of keep driving…I think it has not helped that I have felt pretty trapped since the snake episode..and that ability to go out and come back whenever has gone..totally not the pets fault..or ours..just the way it was…we have both been pretty hard core working on the place for three years and are pretty tired..and this morning was the kicker 🙂 I had some time in the paddocks by myself and now have a block of chockie next to me…I plan on snuggling on the couch with the offenders soon haahahah :)…a good sleep and I will be right as rain in the morning 🙂 thank you so much I feel better already:) 🙂 hugs and loves Bev xx ❤ ❤

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  13. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Some days when I was really suffering with my depression, I felt like a terrible fur mommy to my pets, that I couldn’t give them what they need. I think everyone goes through this. Please don’t be so hard on yourself! Hugs, Ellie

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    • Ellie thank you so much…indeed I am over tired and been over worked…and I think of course the fur babies pick up on it..i have had a lovely day sitting in the sun and gathering my thoughts..and tonight a block of chocolate has perked me up no end…all my babies are so very loved..and I am sure when I wake up tomorrow and the routine starts again I will be fine 🙂 just don’t like the horrid guilt of feeling tied down by them..hugs to you too sweets 🙂 Bev xxx

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  14. Oh my sweet dear friend. You are not alone in this at all. I think we all go through these points in our lives where we need a break. We need some solitude away from the every day chores. Heck, I myself woke up this morning just in that type of mind set. I mean hey, it’s hard keeping mom on a schedule. Gees – and these purr things around here – no one keeps them behaving around here except for me – the pig police. I then I have that new brother – oh dear piggy heavens. Houdini is a hoof-ful. Now that I think of it, whey don’t you and me run away for a holiday together? Snorts – ❤ you lady! XOXO – Bacon
    P.S. You know all of this is in jest. I ❤ you and think the world of you. Days like this just reminds you of how much love you have in your life. ;Winks

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    • Aww my darling Bacon 🙂 yep we all have these days ..seems a block of Lindt chocolate has helped tremendously…she says after Dinnermintz just leapt across my lap sending my crochet flying….arghhhhh..indeed having anipals is a full time job….bless em…even the babies like Houdini can test the patience…and I loves ya back to the moon my friend 🙂 and yes I feel the love 🙂 Hugs and loves Fozziemum ❤ ,<3 xx

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      • OMP – you mentioned Lindt chocolate. OMP – OMP – OMP. Mommy found something new this weekend from them. I gotta tell you – oh it’s great -oh it’s exciting. Okay, give me a minute to slow down. Breathes in – releases. Okay, they have started making Lindt chocolate sticks here. There’s about six pieces on the stick that you can break off to eat. They cost about $1.00 each – mom had a coupon this weekend, buy one get two free. She splurged and got all three flavors. Brownie Bliss, Caramel Cream and Strawberry. Mom/dad tried the strawberry – to die for is what mom said. Oh wow! XOXO – Bacon
        P.S. And yes, we test mommy’s nerves here too. There are days that she wants to sleep in or go to bed early and we don’t let her. We should be we don’t.

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  15. that’s a typical “beam me up Scottie”-day and sadly the only treatment is to wait till such days are over and the next day will be a better one: like Scarlet O’ Hara said: after all. tomorrow is another day. Send you a big hug and hope for a good tuesday.

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  16. As a fellow Fibro sufferer I think this has alot to do with the illness & how it impacts on our bodies & minds. I too have days just as you described (minus the wood, snakes & stoking the fire) & having only 1 cat plus feeding 2 cats at night should be a breeze……Most days it is a lovely routine. Days when Nylablue is healthy & not having explosive diarrhea; days when I am not having the same; days when the phone does not ring from telemarketers & people do not POUND on my apartment door or patio door to irritate me for no real reason…
    Some days when Nylablue has been so sick I think I can not carry on with her & then the guilt comes crashing in….like a huge ocean wave.
    That is when I stop & assess things. I turn off TV & PC. I close the drapes & make a cup of tea & snuggle up to her & just enjoy the quietude & Nylablue. I have learned to NOT demand perfection of myself. The litter box can wait. The dishes can wait. People can leave me an email or PM on FB.
    Once I have had some quiet time I find my mood improves & the chores are less tedious or painful.
    I say put the leads on the poochies & stroll on down to the Dam & just enjoy the day (or evening).
    The chores will all wait for you. Some YOU time will make a world of difference 😉
    Sending you gentle {{{{HUGS}}}}, Sherri-Ellen & Nylablue ❤ ❤ ❤

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    • Aww sweets thankyou so much..i agree I think my weeding on the weekend has not helped my mood..every year I say not this agaon we need to change this area and make it less high maintenance..but something else crops up that requires the funds or time..so there I am again on these horrid hard stones hand weeding….urghhh..so the mood was set before I even woke up 🙂 have had a head that won’t quit and that lowers my patience..i am off to take some pics today..don’t fancy my chances..weather is awful..but you never know…I live in hope…Love and hugs back to you and Nylablue 🙂 Bev xxx ❤ ❤

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      • I hear you bev. When I over do things or do something I swear I AM NOT going to do again I always end up in pain & frustrated; even resentful….
        Hard stones are not friendly to knees either….
        I hope you DID get to go for a gentle walk & got a few pix!
        How is your head doing?? My Sinusitis is sTIL aggravating thte *snot* outta me! UGH!
        Off to Vet’s soon with Queen Nylablue. Once I get her home I have to go to Pet supply store for litter & more food & treats….I am exhausted & have only just showered, dressed & eaten, lol….
        **sighs**
        This too shall pass, right?? (Just not fast enough for us tho’) 😉
        Sending you gentle {{{{HUGS}}}}
        Love Sherri-Ellen & Nylablue x0x0x0

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  17. bev…show me the person who is happy and upbeat and skip to my loo all the time and I will show you a person who’s not dealing with …reality…it’s OK to have ugh days. blah days, non productive days, blue days, sad days, angry days, lazy days, WTF days and dont give a $hit days…we all do…and when you maintain a home, and work the land, and help the community, and tend to your kids, regardless of their age, and help the pets……yea…..it does get tiring…take a break, be it for half a day, and DO something nice for BEV….doesn’t matter what…..do something for FUN, be it reading a book, watching roos, drive into town and window shop, call an old friend…doesn’t matter…just do something…. for BEV…♥ laura

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    • Laura thank you 🙂 I hate the guilt I feel at being annoyed and hemmed in by them…I have had some major snuggles this morning..they have made me laugh and I feel much better..but I am taking a walk a bit later..it is cold and windy but I am looking for Wild Wednesday inspiration..definitely a little something for me 🙂 Love Bev xx < 3 ❤

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  18. BEV sometimes we just get in a funk….nothing wrong…just a funk. I have no right to complain since I am only ruled by one Diva….who pushes at my hand while I eat my cheerios..she either wants a rub or is hoping to make a Cheerio jump off the spoon. I was about 1/4 way finished today when some Diva decided she needed a good shake..My bowl of Cheerios suddenly became hairy. Hugs all around, the Diva has given me Tu-Th off for good behavior.

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    • Haahaahaahh yep..the meal of fur….I am surprised I donlt hack a furball up sometimes :)..this morning the girls pinned me down on the bed and gave me a lovely snuggles..helped the head ache I woke up with..bless em..then Dinnermintz shook her giant Orinche head and my glasses were covered in dribble…made me laugh..i do love em..fun be gone 🙂 hugs and loves Bev xx

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  19. See Bev, we are all there at one time or another. Stepped in a puddle of warm pee last night where someone missed the potty pad in the bathroom upstairs. Then came down this morning to Marty “burying” the newly put down throw rug where the other one had decided she couldn’t wait for me to get down to let them out and piddled on that. The same rug I had changed yesterday morning because Ralphie decided to gobble down kitty grass and hork grass and cat food all over rug that had been there before 🙂 I love my furbabies, I love my furbabies, ……. we are all human my dear, not super human!
    luvs
    Kelly

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    • Hahaha oh Kelly thankyou…those days you could scream…and here I was thinking I was a complete loser as a pet parent :)..the mantra continues here..i love my furbabies……..she says…Luvs Bev xxx

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  20. Don’t feel guilty, we all have days like that. Especially Saturday mornings when it’s time for long-overdue lie-in but someone doesn’t understand it’s the weekend! Big hugs to you xxx

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    • Hahaahah yep…dogs and sleep ins…don’t mix..as puppies it’s the extra energy and at the boys age ..much like us ..it’s the need to pee 😉 thanks sweets hugs and loves to you too 🙂 xxxx Bev xxx

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  21. Hey that is no big deal we all have days like that,at the moment I am having to many like that ,work is irritating me as is Hubby’s mother and she lives next door with health issues and early dementia drives me nuts every day,the only light in my life is Speedy and Hubby at the moment,on the plus when I finish work tomorrow I have 11 days off but that means I have to deal with hubby’s Mother more,I am going to take some time off from that too even if I have to lock the door.
    but we are having lovely warm sunny weather so lots of walkies with Speedy Yay for that!xx Rachel

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    • Aww darling..i hope your days are better too..sounds damn awful…always something to deal with and I agree sometimes we just have crappy days 🙂 feeling much better thanks sweets Loves Bev xxx

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  22. Oh Bev, I totally understand, and I have days like this as well. Sometimes it all seems like too much….taking care of a house, taking care of the pets, working at a job, and then trying to find time for the blog and visiting other blogs as well. I also daydream about time away with nothing to worry about but enjoying myself. But I love my life too, and these feelings pass (or come and go more likely!).
    We woman really feel like we have to “do it all” right, when sometimes we’d like a chance to “do nothing”! 🙂
    The “door bitch” was my favorite part!!! It’s in and out all day long for the crew here!

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